…Jokes….Tears and Realisation…

Ok so this story is quite a strange story , well its not strange its just a bit random lool!

You also have to promise not to laugh, but everything happens for a reason as you’ll realise at the end of this blog post!


Ok so last night, I sat in bed …

I picked up my daily bread and read it …

I’m not gonna try and front because I’m Christian, and say “Oh I was blesssssed and heavens floodgates poured out all over me!”

Nah not even, I didnt get it not because it wasn’t factual but because I was itching for something , to quench the thirst in my life, and at that point it weren’t wetting my spirit…

So I picked up this book I’m reading called

“Be angry but don’t blow it”

looool bet that gave you an insight into my walk!


Great book, (yeah…I’m on page 11, and I read fast… :()

But not for that moment in time…

So I picked up my Bible…

I had my iPod playing out loud on my speakers in the backgroud and it was on the ‘On the Go’ list , on shuffle..<<<I love the way i just built up momentum there, I’m getting scared and I’m the one typing..and I know the story! What is this!?


Ok so yeah I decided to take a trip down Roman Lane .

I started at Romans 1 again reading the footnotes and the verses and that…


*does tearing sound*

I tore the top of the page!!!!!

I gasped for air, in total shock…

And then I felt my lips pouting and my eyes swelling?

could it be …?!.

I sobbed for like 2 seconds ..

I know…right now Christians aswell as non believers might think I’m some stupid emotional fragile woos!

Don’t care let me finish my story…

Then I asked my self… “Why are you crying?”

and I just clocked over all over again…

(I’m gonna tell you it,in the stages of thought as it was in my head )

(Song playing at that moment in time.. Agnus Dei by Donnie Mcclurkin)

1:I’ve never torn my Bible before…

2:I really love my Bible…

3:This is the Bible that my dad got me on my birthday

4:This is the same Bible I begged for for years , one that has maps, notes, charts,character profiles, timelines, theology scripts and everythinggg..

5:This is the Bible I began to take my walk seriously with

6:This is the Bible that I quote from confidently

7:This is the Bible that gave me life

8:If my Bible is torn and I loose some words…no what would happen if one day my Bible was confiscated? like by law?

9:I am nothing without my Bible…

10:I am nothing without God….


Its funny because I knew this…

Yeah I knew this but I forgot I think.

Being human is quite annoying, your Id always gets the better of you because it’s uncontrollable, and it’s desires are always beyond belief. But as the bible says  Jeremiah 17 v9-10 “The human heart is the most decietful of all things, and desperatley wicked.Who really knows how bad it is? But I the Lord searches all hearts and examin secret motives. i give all people their due rewards, according to what their actions deserve.”

Then I started to think about my place on earth my purpose and my plaforms.

Check this first and then I’ll explain myself…

Romans 1 v17-32

(You can read it yourself but I’m going to type it up for clarity)

17:This Good News tells us how God makes us right in hs sight.This accomplished from start to finish by faith. As the Scripture says, “It is through faith that a righteous person has life”

Meaning its only through faith, and our trust in Christ that we are right with God… believing in the freedom Christ brings, and the forgiveness through the sheading of His blood on the cross. Anything we’ve done has been forgiven and forgotten, and a chance to be right accoring to Gods standards is now available.

 18:But God shows his anger from heaven against all sinful, wicked people who supress the truth by their wickedness. 19:They know the truth about God because he has made it obvious to them. 20: for ever since the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky. Through everything God made, they can clearly see his invisible qualities-his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuses for not knowing God.

Youch guys!! loool there you go, saved or not saved , and for the saved guys I hope this shows you something to reference back to if you witness to an athiest 🙂 Just take a look outside and ask yourself who and how the earth itself was created. The fact that it is the only planet with living beings, oxygen water and land, evergrowing and that, and if its due to your ‘evolution’ then why are the other planets not ‘evolving’?…

21:Yes, they knew God, but they wouldn’t worship him as God or even give him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. As a result, their minds became dark and confused. 22:Claiming to be wise, they instead became utter fools. 23: and instead of worshipping the glorious, ever living God, they worshipped idols made to look like mere people and birds and animals and reptiles.

Ahahahaha I think this might just be a one man joke..

This was MEEEEEEEEEEE guys! Some any scientific know it all goon that thought they had all the answers to query the very exsistence of God?! Huuuh Waaat! Yes! Me ! Believe it please . I was a Hippie, a Buddhist, a punk, an emo, a Skinhead and anything else i could test out! I used to chant the locust chant “Namyur rekucher”. This apparently was supposed to calm me down and help me think positively and straight and when I feel like lashing out I was to do this…? Like counting to 10!

I belived in peace and love and understanding , I hated rules and I never ever understood the reason for Christ I used to say “He just makes it so difficult like why cant we just pray to God?” I used to say “If God created the world why is this and why is that?” and I never acutally sat down and read the Word of God?! I know how does that work ..where was my opinion formed from loool?! 

I was a crazy evolutionsists with so called theorys!


I invented my own God who done things my way and no this wasn’t the Arc of Covenant God wasn’t hovering between no cherubims loool….


I was always a top student always got good grades from primary school I used to get 6a’s like the topest of the possible grade and I never even tried hard loool, even when I got kicked out of school and put in center , missed months of schooling, I did my GCSE’s and got A’s and B’s and C’s. I went through college barely going in and got nice marks to go uni with.

I got abit too big for my boots and thought because ‘I made it this far‘ I must be as dumb as the wisest man!


Went to a lot of church services in my life and had been performing on stage since I was 5 infront of large Christian audiences.

God was using me even though I wasn’t really in line with him, this also relates back to Paul… 


I was a Christian on sundays and when it was relevant.

Noone knew what I was getting up to behind closed doors .

So when I started searching during my college days I had a Bible study mentor who used to really put up with me and teach me but as stuborn as I was and hard hearted I used to say things like “But we all make mistakes and noones perfect” there was an excuse for everything…

Watch this video …”Almost saved” by P4CM..

This is what my life as like…

The last part of this verse in Romans said…

24:”So God abandoned them to do whatever shameful things their hearts desired. As a result, they did vile and degrading things with each other’s bodies. 25: They traded the truth about God for a lie. so they worshipped and served the things God created instead of the Creator himself, who is worthy of eternal praise! Amen. ..28:since they thought it foolish to acknowledge God , he abandoned them to their foolish thinking and let them do things that should never be done.29:Their lives became full of every kind of wickedness, sin, greed, hate, envy, murder, quarelling, deception, malicious behaviour and gossip.30: they are backstabbers, haters of God, insolent, proud, and boastful.They invent new ways of sining, and they disobey their parents.31:They refuse to understand, break their promises, are heartless and have no mercy. 32:They know God’s justice requires that those who do theses things deserved to die, yet they do them anyway. Worse yet, they encourage others to do them too.

Again that was me…Sinning and doing it with such guilt but the  more I did it the less I cared, because I thought God would understand. What people don’t understand when it comes to sin is that, sin is everything that God hates, and the standards for sin belong to God we can’t just start trying to decide what we think is and isn’t a sin when we didn’t create ourselves. People who do that are not living according to the ways of God’s righteousness, they have chosen to do their own thing and because God sees their hearts as the Scripture says, he knows when they’ve gone to far with their hardened hearts and abandons them to think the way they think, and allows them to convince them selves they aren’t doing anything bad. 

I was a proper Prodigal daughter boi!!

If your not clear about this go to Luke 16 v11-32

 I came across this scripture… in Romans loool (again) and I laughed at the raw truth and sarcasim and stopped in silence to a realisation which I had not yet.

Romans 3 v10-22…

10:As the Scripture says, Noone is righteous- not even one.11:Noone is truly wise; noone is seeking God.12:All have turned away; all have become useless. noone does good not a sinlge one. 13:Their talk is foul, like the stench from and open grave. Their tongues are filled with lies. Snake venom drips from their lips.14: Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness. 15:They rush to commit murder.16: Destruction and misery always follow them. 17:They don’t know where to find peace.18:They have no fear of God at all.”


watch the sarcasim loooooool!!! 😀

19: OBVIOUSLY,the law applies to those to whom it was given, for it’s purpose is to keep people from having excuses and to show that the entire world is guilty before God. 20:for no one can ever be made right with God by doing what the law commands, the law simply shows us how sinful we are. 

 In my Bible I noted, Yearn to be more like Jesus, put away anything that proves otherwise. Appreciate God’s love…boi forever imperfect, God must really love us ! :S

21:But now God has shown us a way to be made right with him without keeping the requirements of the law, as was promised in the writings of Moses and the prophets long ago. 22: We are made right with God by placing our faith in Jesus Christ. And this is true for everyone who believes, no matter who we are.

Note to self: Thankyou Jesus!

 So because of Jesus Christ I am now the following.


























Ok so you probably think Okay where she going with this shes so weird..


I was convicted….Christians and non believers love to hear that you know lool they seem to like to amplifiy other peoples wrongs.

But God is good and works for a purpose..so its all good..

So…this is my blog rightt?


This is my platform yes?

Yes Obui whats the point?

Let’s look back at Paul

Paul was an articulate, sensitive, fierce and intense know it all, when he met Christ and became saved the only difference changed was that he channeled all this energy through teaching the gospel.

I started this blog in June I think …

The reason for my blog as the first part says is..

June 2010

The First Desicion…

I have finally made the long overdue decision to start typing my thoughts, and to share them with the rest of the world that has access to the World Wide Web…

The Ocean Is Deep…

It has depths you may never see the bottom of, and so is the depths of my mind also similar…


I forgot to use my platform….:S

“Hello Obui you there? Hellloooo? Erm i heard you had something to tell us? something we needed to know.. ? no? When you’re ready then? Erm..Okay bye?”

And for a long time I’ve had writers block… and realised that I’ve slyly been misusing this platform. Like Paul he channeled his passions and characteristics through Christ like things and teaching the Gospel.

To be honest and logical if Paul didnt go to Rome, then the Bible couldv’e taken a little longer to get to Britain, as if you read history you’d know the Romans invaded Britain and took over and had the English as slaves, teaching the people the ‘new way’ which was infact ‘Christian’… in their own way mind you loool.

So where does this leave me as a Christian, who is supposed to go out into the world and spread the good news??

This would mean I would use this blog to communicate the Gospel to those who have misunderstood *YAYS* 😀 as I once was in that postion… 😦

The funny thing is, as I’m sure I now sound obsessesed with Paul but..another thing Paul said that I totally agree with and am feeling these days is this…

Phillipians 1:21-24For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better. But if I love, I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don’t know which is better. I’m torn between two desires; I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me. but for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live”

The Bible does says that “Teach and counsel each other with the wisdom he gives” and “Whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus giving thanks through him to God the Father”

This does tend to leave me feeling like this….

So now on my blog its gonna be.. as Brandon and Armor say …

 “Straight Gospel no positive gas!”

Its all good talking about things that are uplifting and teaching people about things they don’t know but what is the point of that knowledge when there are people who don’t even know Christ?

The Gopsel is positivity in itself!

The Gospel is Life! everlating!



As most Christians do to proove they are ‘righteous’ .I’ll leave every trace of my past there or whatevers left of it…That way you’ll be able to see the difference and see the Jesus I represent, like Paul.. his story was told from the begining of him not just from his time as an Apostle.

Repping Christ to the fullest in anyway possible, no apologies guys!



3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Ebisiemen
    Aug 31, 2010 @ 20:37:41

    I absolutely love this Obui…change iss definitely necessary…I love the Bible sooo much tooo…like I might sound wierd but I cant sleep without it under my pillow and I have this ritual where I kiss it before it goes under my pillow….loool that is wierd…but just sooo you know ure not the only one that suppperrr cherishes the Word…we can be odd together lool…I also apologise to God everytime it falls on the floor…but on a serious note this blog was sooo timely…soo beautifull…and funny and captivating…its long overdue for me to use the platorm God has given me…and Im just gonna start right NOW before he shames me and raises STONES to do it!!! In short I read it all….and I pray you continue…because my word you dont know how many people you will touch with youre words…inspired by Christ ofcourse nuffff luvage and stay blesseddd xxxx


  2. Tokunbo de-Souza
    Sep 01, 2010 @ 10:20:57

    Amazing Obui!


  3. pheebz
    Sep 03, 2010 @ 08:52:27

    obui this is really good. i enjoyed ever bit of it. i really liked that poem from p4c aswel. gave me a huge wake up call. love u loads xxx


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